Manasa lived in a closed neighbourhood. These were three
storey buildings with four wings, each housing 24 flats. The housing complex
had a six feet tall boundary wall that kept strangers away.
In her neighbourhood lived Anita. One day Manasa saw that Anita
had brought a small bucket of white synthetic emulsion on the ground. Dipping a
sleek brush into the bucket, she dabbed her bicycle with thick layers of white
colour. The bicycle used to be pink and inky blue with black pedals and a few
rods of steel and black plastic. As Anita’s colouring progressed, each of the
different shades of the bicycle disappeared under a white sheet. Unable to
resist, Manasa went over to her and asked,
“What happened to you Anita? Why are you smothering your
bicycle with this uniform whiteness?”
Anita looked up from her work and said with scorn, “Can’t
you see, Didi? This is white, the greatest of colours: the colour of light, the
colour of clouds, the colour of chalk, the colour of snow, the colour of enlightenment,
the colour of everything pure and peaceful.”
Manasa felt the note of scorn in her voice and decided not
to argue with her. Moreover, she was in a hurry to go to the market. But on her
way she sat thinking how dull it was to ride a bicycle that was completely
white; the innocent pink and the bold blue had completely disappeared. But it
seemed that the steel rods did not accept the novelty; the chain and chain
cover were streaked with an oddity imposed on them; the pedals got jammed; the
rubber tyre was patchy white and would soon become dirty.
Manasa was struck by the impracticality of the whole
mission. She looked forward to the outcome. She imagined Anita riding on her
new vehicle, the emissary of ‘everything pure and peaceful’. The sixteen year
old girl would go round and round in her whitewashed horse and people would
exclaim ‘look at that’. Maybe Anita would also wear a white dress.
It was nearly so. Whenever Manasa came downstairs, her eyes
would invariably scan the grounds to spy on Anita. There she would be, gaily
showing around her bright steed.
As days passed, many-a-times Anita would sit with a brush in
hand retouching a portion of her bicycle with white. In about a year, the
whiteness disappeared under most of the original colours of the bicycle: the
rubber, the steel, the plastic, the grease, the dirt, the pink and the blue. Only
a few traces of her effort at whitening and purifying remained.
At home, Manasa recollected the sight of a splotchy bicycle
with a smile. The normalcy of the thing satisfied her.
One morning as Manasa headed for the exit gate, she was
startled by the sight of a girl sitting on a green stool in front of her red
and white bicycle and trying to colour it green. There stood the paint bucket
and there she sat holding a brush in her right hand and a large handkerchief in
her left hand. She had wrapped her head and shoulders in a scarf. Her bare feet
were left unprotected from the splash of colour. She was completely engrossed
in her mission.
Manasa took note of the girl’s features and decided to find
out afterwards where she lived. On her way back in the evening, instead of
going to her flat, she turned towards the place where she had seen the girl in
the morning. She could see the stains of green all over the ground. It was a cemented
ground and the colour could not be washed away immediately. It would stay there
waiting for its natural wear and tear.
After locating the green bicycle and the flat of its owner,
Manasa came home. She felt terribly exhausted. She fetched an apple from the
kitchen and reclined on her bed. For her, the whole world had gone insane. The
satisfaction of observing the genuine disappearance of Anita’s fanaticism gave
way to anxiety.
Do we never learn from others? Manasa thought aloud.
A few days later she met Anita. She was riding a new
two-wheeler. She smiled at Manasa and stopped to chat. Manasa said, “Wow, a
black and blue scooter!”
“Yes, Didi. After the bicycle broke down, I asked Papa to
buy me a scooter. I am grown up now.
There were many lovely colours in the
showroom. I could have taken all of them. Diversity is beautiful. This, I bought,
by way of contrast to my previous choice. Pink and then white and now black;
these are shades under the same sky; we just have different views of the same
thing.”
Manasa smiled and said, “And we don’t have to paint
everything according to one point of view. Just look at that girl. She has
followed your example and decided to paint her vehicle green all over. How long
will it last? And how long will she struggle to maintain it? Like you, she will
also discard the artificiality of it and allow the natural colours to reappear.”
Manasa hesitated and then with some determination continued,
“Anita, do you know that girl?” Anita shook her head. It was evident that Anita
was alarmed to know that there were others who had taken her cue and set out to
colour their vehicles according to their singular fancy. Although it would
actually bring about many colourful bicycles in the compound, the prospect of
girls frantically waving a blue or a green or an orange paintbrush frightened
her. So she quickly rejoined,
“Didi, I can find out who she is. Maybe I can even talk to
her. I can show her my old bicycle and the ugly look it has got due to my
folly. Then she can show others also the outcome of this kind of craze. We can
gather the children together in the evening and hold a conference. We can stop
everyone from being foolish.”
Manasa started shaking her head. She decided she was wrong.
The whole idea was wrong. Expecting one crazy girl to teach another crazy girl
something was like retracing the same old steps of zeal again. She did not want
to make it one girl’s mission to dissuade another girl from doing wrong. She
did not want a quarrel.
She raised her palm to Anita’s lips. Anita stopped speaking.
She observed that Manasa was pained. So she started her two-wheeler, waved and
left. Manasa too, went out of the gate and to her college.
The next morning the same girl sat on the same green stool
with her green bicycle standing nearby. Manasa went over to the girl and asked,
“Why have you painted your bicycle green?”
The girl replied with a note of sadness, “Didi, it had had
an accident and after repairs it looked ugly. This is the only paint I could
find in Mummy’s store. But, see, the paint on the steel and rubber is coming
off. I am going to redo some of these today but the whole effort of painting
has left me exhausted.”
Manasa quickly said, “Of course, the forcefully applied
colour would never last. I am sure you could do with a completely new vehicle.”
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*First published in School Shiksha, 2018,
won Poiesis Award for Excellence in Literature given away by Poiesisonline, Xpresspublications, 2018.
Indeed a heart-touching story of searching our own individuality. And congratulations mam for acclaiming the award.
ReplyDeleteThank you Nitish Raj !
Deleteand we dont have to paint everything according to one pov...this was the subtle message.Liked the style of writing..
ReplyDeleteThank you !!
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